Dear Jesus #7: Happy Day !!

Thank You Lord !! I finally met him today... and the happiest moment of today is I get the chance to hug him after a long time..
Thank you BiG... uda dateng jauh2.. Bless you abundantly, BiG..


xoxo,
8renna

On Christmas day : December 25th 2009 @ Glow Ministry

Today's preach about Christmas, by Rev. Gilbert Lumoindong


7 Facts of Christmas:

1. You are WORTH IT.
2. God always kept His promise on time.
3. Have a close intimate relationship with God.
4. Always have FAITH throughout your life.
5. Your problems are not the end of everything, so you must believe in miracles.
6. Fear and Worries are not came from God.
7. Let God leads your life to His way.

Song of the day: O' Holly Night


Happy Christmas day everyone.. !


xoxo,
8renna

Dear Jesus #6: Happy Birthday to YOU My Lord..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY LORD JESUS

Thank You very much for Your blessing and love upon my life.

Merry Christmas to all of you

xoxo,

8ren

Dear Jesus #5 : I miss him so much

Dear Jesus,


What have I done wrong today?? Why did he seems to always mad at me?
Hari ini dia lagi sakit...flu berat katanya.. Tuhan berkatin dia ya..supaya bisa cepet sembuh..


Tuhan.. 
Apa yang harus saya lakukan supaya dia bisa kembali seperti dulu? Supaya saya bisa merasa kasih sayang dia lagi? saya bisa dengar tertawanya..?


Mohon petunjuk-Mu Tuhan..


Thank you Lord.


xoxo,
8ren

bLack ChRisTmas !!

I'm having a "Black Christmas" theme this year... check it out..

I'm thinking bout adding "Silver" touch on the tree... whaddya' think ?

xoxo,
8ren

BALi Sept 3rd - Sept 6th 2009

I forgot to update my lil' trip to Bali back on September 2009... so here we go..

Day 1: September 3rd 2009

"View from the top" I took this pic when I was in the plane with Mom.. Can you see the lil' mountain back there?? the view is amazing... and look what I found in my front seat pocket :

Yeap !! "Invocation Card" .. and so I began my pray on the plane..

After 1 hour and 40 minutes... I arrive in BALI !! and then Dad picked us up and straight to Khrisna Restaurant (a Buddhist restaurant) to have our first meal there.. 

Nasi Campur: Rice + Fish Satay (Sate Lilit) + Chili + Fried Peanuts + shredded Chicken.. 

Later that day I was heading to the hotel.. and later on the evening I met my childhood best friends Rafi and Kumala at Warung Italy in Seminyak..one of their friend is having a bday party there..

 KumaLa .. Me .. RaFi

Acit *the birthday girl* .. KumaLa .. Me 

From Warung Italy, we (20 people!!) went straight to one of their kost and we had a lil' pre-cocktail there.. Chocolate Bailey's.. !! and guess our next destination.. SKY GARDEN.

Sky Garden, Legian

*having fun @ SkyGarden, Legian*

Bali = Beer Bintang

We were up till 3am *yeap..that's right..* with Kumala, Rafi and John,they took me back to the hotel.. and guess what..it was raining and we were on our motorbike.. and the best part is...WE GOT LOST ! and I finally back to my hotel at 4am after we went to the Police Station and asking for direction... *just nice*

Day 2: Sept 4th 2009

Woke up today with my head bangin' so loud (slept for 5 hours).. We're having our brunch at Anda Jatim Restaurant.. great meal ! Here's what I have..

"Tumpeng Mini" :

Yellow Fragrant Rice + Fried Chicken with Peanut Sauce + Half boiled egg + cucumber + Beef floss + potato + tempe + perkedel.

Today's Itinerary: Blue Point Beach.. Uluwatu Temple.. Garuda Wisnu Kencana..

the view @ Blue Point Beach



Me @ Blue Point Beach

Rafi .. Me .. KumaLa @ Uluwatu Temple

With 1 of the "bli" guard in front of GWK front gate

Hyang Lala Nusantara Dance Collaboration..

Great n perfect performance !! in this pic: Pendet Dance..

got myself a "falling star" temporary tattoo on my back ^^

Dinner @ Animo Resto.. new resto! at Bypass

Day 3: September 5th 2009

Shopping!!

Went shopping all day !!! since tomorrow will be my last day... the flight will be early in the morning...

@ Kuta Square with Kumala

SUNSET !!!! @ Kuta with Kumala

Day 4: September 6th 2009

Back to reality.. !! Back to Jakarta ... !!

ps: Thank you very much to my best friends Rafi and Kumala.. I had a great time !!!

xoxo,

8ren

.: Wedding ?!?! Marriage ?!?! :.

When a single - unmarried - woman reach her certain age *around 23 y/o up*, she will be questions with the people surrounds her.. Pretty annoying actually..and here's what happened to me... these are the short version of mine actually..

--

"So...when will you get married??" *with a skeptical look on their face*

"Bren, any wedding bell soon??" *with a smug on their face*

"You'll get married one day, right??" *with a stupid one eyebrow up looking face that says *DUH*

"Bren, will you ever get married?? *with a confusing unbelievable expression*

--

YES !! YES !! YES !! YES !! I WILL GET MARRIED !! .......but not now..

--

The thing is.... I AM AFRAID TO GET MARRIED !!! there you go...I said it !! out loud !! .. I just found out that me and marriage is not a best friend...yet... I am not that kinda girl who plan my marriage since I was 6 or 7 years old... I never think of marriage until people are buzzing me with those marriage questions lately...

And then I asked my self.. Will I ever get married? When will I get married??
... Believe it or not... I don't have the answer... But I know I will...Someday..

So STOP bugging me with the wedding questions !! c'mon people !! this is 21st century !! I will send the invitation to you..!! just chill will 'ya??!! *but you must wait for the next 3 or 4 years to get it ;) * What's the rush?? I just don't get it.. Look at Carrie Bradshaw !! She got married when she's 40 !! and still looking fab..

..Will I be looking fabulous on my wedding day?? .. *stay tune people...stay tune..*

.: 8ren :.

PS: Happy 23rd anniversary, my Big.. *SmoocH*

.: TWENTY.FOUR :.

May 30th 2009


24.
That's a lot of numbers. I can't believe how fast the time as passed.

Is it my time to grow up? because I never put myself into an "adult phase".. should I start thinking 'bout participating?? like right now, maybe ??? or just being a "young adult", maybe??

At some point I agree with Britney Spears..I still feels like I'm in a *not a girl..not yet a woman* phase....so am I actually too scared to face this cynical world with this whole mature-adult-grown up way to think and solve the problems?? or am I just too afraid to grow up??

The idea just come up in my mind...that I don't wanna grow up too fast.. or just don't wanna grow up... at this situation I really really really hope that I make friends with Peter Pan.. So where are you Peter Pan??? can you help me??

Yes!! I'm so afraid to grow up... I'm afraid to have all of these experiences and big steps that I have to take to move on and survive in this cruel world...
Or maybe I just wait and see where the chips may fall?? and follow where the wind blows?? I guess I have to face my own adult-grown up world and explore it myself..

At this moment I really hope that life isn't so complicated as I've imagined..
I guess I have to work hard for being an adult..or young adult which sounds way better..

.bR.

.: 27.05.2009 :.

HAPPY 24th BIRTHDAY

Curently:
Listening : The original piece instrumental version of Happy Birthday
Doing : Praying.
Eating : no birthday cake..too bad.. porridge, with ketchup n peppers
Drinking : Orange water
Feeling : I don't feel like a birthday girl..
Thinking : Birthday is not a big deal.. especially when you spend your birthday with no one and you are having a fever and a bad flu..


Lord, Thank You for adding 1 more year for me..
I might spend this year's birthday alone without any celebration, but I know You must be celebrate my birthday with bunch of angels up there in Heaven..just like when You created me..
Thank You My Lord. Amen.

bR

.: My Birthday Eve :.

May 26th 2009

.: DON'T FOOL YOUR EYES!! THE CIRCLES ARE NOT MOVING AT ALL :.
~ optical.illusions ~

Curently:
Feeling : Fever + Flu = Not Good
Doing : Not taking a bath since yesterday..I got a reason this time.
Drinking : Hot water..and its not even warm..
Eating : Porridge with ketchup and pepper..(its the only food I could swallow)
Listening : I Will Survive by Cake
Watching : Jackie Chan's bloopers videos on YouTube.
Thinking : "So this is how I pass my birthday eve...alone in bed and sick..great...!!"

bR

.: Alone Again :.

May 23rd, 2009

.: Is the window in this picture opening to the left or to the right? :.
~ optical.illusions ~

Alone again..
Mom and bro went back to Spore...
The seconds when they got in the car..the house is in silent mode..

*sigh*

Currently:
Doing: checking optical illusions stuff then blogging.
Drinking: milk
Listening: Nocturne by Chopin
Eating: Home made noodles
Wearing: Lucky undies ;)

luv,
bR

.: Angels and Demons :.

May 16th, 2009



Just finished the movie...

Great movie... even there's a bit different from the book, but sure it's not disappointing..at all.
and this movie makes me love to visit ITALY more than I know...

4 thumbs up for Angels and Demons !! yaayy !!

luv,
bR

Sandang + Pangan + Papan + Google

May 1st 2009


Kayanya kebutuhan kita sebagai manusia uda ga cuma "Sandang + Pangan + Papan"..

Internet uda jadi salah satu kebutuhan... sampe2 handphone uda bukan buat telponan lg..tapi bisa internetan juga...
Today I realized one thing..that a lot of people in this world, including me mulai bergantung sama yg namanya INTERNET...terutama orang yg bekerja yaa..
klo ga check e-mail, update Facebook and Friendster <--- uda mulai ditinggal nih... blom lagi update Blog..Shout di Twitter..browsing..sampe2 ada yg bisnis dari internet...jualan sampe lelang di ebay..

Jadi menurut gw kebutuhan mendasar kta skarang beda..

SANDANG + PANGAN + PAPAN + GOOGLE

love,
bR

.: bRoKen :.

May 1st, 2009


..It is 2 minutes to midnight..

and I feel broken.


luv,
bR

.: The Other :.

April 11th, 2009

What could have happen with the heart?
When it flames to the other?

What could have happen with the heart?
When it distracted by the other?

What could have happen with the future?
When the other came?

What could have happen with the love?
When the other appears?

~~

..After all, we can't control someones heart.. can't we?..

bR

Introducing..New Heart..

NOT MINE

NOT YOURS

NOT EVEN OURS

bR

.:Sunday Morning:.

March 22nd, 2009

Today I realized one thing...Running is not for me..

~~

My heart was racing..
I'm running out of time..I know somehow.
Hope has left me here. This time.
It happened.
I don't want to listen to what the heart tells me now..
I don't want to understand..
Logic seems the last thing I have in mind..right now..

~~

It hurts.
The pain won't go away while I was running.
"Is this the right path?"
Uncertainty has answered.
Suffocated in thin air, must be.

~~

.Running.

~~

I don't want to stop running..
I don't want to lose... I think.
I don't want to know what's in the next corner..
.I don't care.
It's today.

Get some...or lose some..

I have made up my mind...
Chasing what my heart's desire.

~~

Will I ever be running after today?
Will I ever let my heart tells me..
Will I ever listen?
Will I ever understand?

~~

Will I ever run?

Again?

bR

..F*cked up day..

March 8th, 2009


Hari ini bukan hari yang baik buat gw..
First... it has been 8 days since I heard my bf's voice..and it's been 21 days since the last time I saw my bf... trust me..it wasn't a good days lately...
Dan hari ini gw ribut ama tante2 Chinese gila di Mall Puri !! what a day ....!

Here's the situation..

Gw lagi ngantri beli minuman di Auntie Anne's Mall Puri..depan gw kira2 ada 6 orangan... lumayan tuh queue panjang jg..dan diblakang gw jg uda ada antrian.. by the time I reached the cashier counter, gw lg liat ke board atas dan baru aja mau pesen tiba2 ada tante2 di blakang gw dan tiba2 ngomong ke cashier guy,

"Yang almond satu ya.."
(tanpa rasa bersalah dan merasa giliran dy yg mesen..) abis itu dy bayar... gw diemin aja tuh..wkt dy trima kembalian gw blg gini,

"Ci, laen kali ngantri ya.."
(FYI, gw ngomong dengan nada pelan dan sopan..)

"Eh !! anak muda skarang kurang ajar yaa !!!! saya kan dilayanin sama dia!!! liat ga ?!?!"
(sambil nunjuk2 gw pake telunjuk dia...dan treak-treak bermaksud bikin malu gw..)

"Cii !!! liat ga lu berdiri dmana?!?!?!! liat ga depan lu ada orang ?!?! bisa liat ga ?!?!! yang kurang ajar syapa ?!?!!!?! lu yang nyelak !!!!!"
(gw langsung treak-treak lebih kenceng biar anaknya ama orang2 yg ngantri diblakang dy tau !! dan dy malu skalian !!)

"Dasar !! anak kurang ajar !!! bilang ga ngantri...bla bla bla.."
(langsung bawa anaknya pergi)

"Eh anjingg !!!!!! lu yang kurang ajar !!!! dulu disekolahin ga??!!! ngantri dong !! anjiing !!"
(That auntie is a real bitch !!!)

For oldies out there !!!! FYI, bukan selalu yang tua yg benar...bukan kta yang muda yang selalu kurang ajar !!!! bisa bedain dong mana yg bener mana yang salah...!!! (klo emang tadi dy tetep ributin dsana pasti gw tonjok !!! )
Gw emang kasar... dan gw ga nyesel uda treakin dy dengan kata2 kasar.. i dont care what people say ... buat gw yang namanya ngantri ya ngantri... tunggu gilirannya.. dy yang duluan treak2 sambil nunjuk2 ... syapa yg kurang ajar ?!?!?! Semua orang yg berdiri diblakang dy juga ngantri kok !! semua tau klo ngantri ada gilirannya !! jangan berasa klo yang tua yg slalu benar dan bisa marahin yang muda seenaknya... seharusnya yg tua yg tau diri...dan tau mana yg salah dan benar... klo dy ngerasa bener, ributin aja skalian..ga usah pergi dari TKP... !! Gw diajarin orang tua gw untuk minta maaf klo kta berbuat salah dan pertahanin yang bener klo kta berbuat bener...

Ini masalah kecil ! klo dy sadar dy salah dan uda nyelak, tinggal bilang sorry waktu gw negur dy..ga bakalan lah gw treak2in dy...setiap orang punya emosi...klo dy ga peduli treak2 dan asal nunjuk2 orang, gw juga akan melakukan hal yg sama..ga perduli dy tua ato muda...
klo dipikir2 lagi bener2 bikin marah tuh tante2...anaknya aja diem aja ga mau belain dy !! Dan gw sama skali ga ngerasa salah sampe skarang...karena gw ngantri !! dy ngantri..!! tapi nyelak pas sampe kasir..T-A-I bgt kan tuh orang???


and I'm fierce !!!
bR

.:My own E71:.

February 22nd, 2009


CHRISTMAS come wwaayy early this year !!! I got my self a celly !!
Yep yep..my own E71 white steel !! yeeaahh baby !!!

Kerasa bgt lho klo bayarnya pake hasil jerih payah keringet dan hasil tulang-tulang gw yang gw banting-banting... It worth a lot..

Thank you Lord, for making my wish come true..
bR

.:Another day, another story:.

February 14th, 2009 (yes..another post on val's day..)


What if..

I'm not deciding to cut my hair today..
I'm not talking on the phone with him last night..
I'm not meeting him today..

~~

Maybe..

Everything's gonna be Okay..
or
Is it already destined to be complicated like now?
or
I really should not meet him today.. so he'll be fine and I'll be fine..
or not?


but at the end I realized one thing..
All of this St. Valentine celebration a.k.a valentine's day thing are really not my kinda stuff..
Let's say... he (The Saint Val's) and I are not making a good pair..never had..

so I'm wishing ya'll a happy fu*klentine's day !!! yiihaaww !!
bR