Introducing..New Heart..

NOT MINE

NOT YOURS

NOT EVEN OURS

bR

.: Let me Sign :.

March 27th, 2009

Broken she

Has her arms twisted
She's pointing at me

I'll stand, but I ain't coming
Over as she

She spoke with a voice that
Struck at the sky

She said,

"Come on over,
Bittersweet,

I'll wrap you in my arms."

And She said,
"Let me sign"

"Let me sign"


- Robert Pattinson -

.:Never Think:.

March 27th, 2009



I should never think
What's in your heart
What's in our home
So I won't

You'll learn to hate me
But still call me baby
Oh love
So call me by my name

And save your soul 

Save your soul
Before you are to far gone
Before nothing can be done

I'll try to decide when
She'll lie in the end
I ain't got no fight in me
In this whole damn world
So hold off
She should hold off
It's the one thing that I've known

Once I put my coat on
I coming out in this all wrong
She standing outside holding me
Saying oh please
I'm in love
I'm in love

Girl save your soul
Go on save your soul
Before it's to far gone
And before nothing can be done
Cause without me
You got it all

So hold on
Without me you got it all


- Robert Pattinson -

.:Sunday Morning:.

March 22nd, 2009

Today I realized one thing...Running is not for me..

~~

My heart was racing..
I'm running out of time..I know somehow.
Hope has left me here. This time.
It happened.
I don't want to listen to what the heart tells me now..
I don't want to understand..
Logic seems the last thing I have in mind..right now..

~~

It hurts.
The pain won't go away while I was running.
"Is this the right path?"
Uncertainty has answered.
Suffocated in thin air, must be.

~~

.Running.

~~

I don't want to stop running..
I don't want to lose... I think.
I don't want to know what's in the next corner..
.I don't care.
It's today.

Get some...or lose some..

I have made up my mind...
Chasing what my heart's desire.

~~

Will I ever be running after today?
Will I ever let my heart tells me..
Will I ever listen?
Will I ever understand?

~~

Will I ever run?

Again?

bR

..F*cked up day..

March 8th, 2009


Hari ini bukan hari yang baik buat gw..
First... it has been 8 days since I heard my bf's voice..and it's been 21 days since the last time I saw my bf... trust me..it wasn't a good days lately...
Dan hari ini gw ribut ama tante2 Chinese gila di Mall Puri !! what a day ....!

Here's the situation..

Gw lagi ngantri beli minuman di Auntie Anne's Mall Puri..depan gw kira2 ada 6 orangan... lumayan tuh queue panjang jg..dan diblakang gw jg uda ada antrian.. by the time I reached the cashier counter, gw lg liat ke board atas dan baru aja mau pesen tiba2 ada tante2 di blakang gw dan tiba2 ngomong ke cashier guy,

"Yang almond satu ya.."
(tanpa rasa bersalah dan merasa giliran dy yg mesen..) abis itu dy bayar... gw diemin aja tuh..wkt dy trima kembalian gw blg gini,

"Ci, laen kali ngantri ya.."
(FYI, gw ngomong dengan nada pelan dan sopan..)

"Eh !! anak muda skarang kurang ajar yaa !!!! saya kan dilayanin sama dia!!! liat ga ?!?!"
(sambil nunjuk2 gw pake telunjuk dia...dan treak-treak bermaksud bikin malu gw..)

"Cii !!! liat ga lu berdiri dmana?!?!?!! liat ga depan lu ada orang ?!?! bisa liat ga ?!?!! yang kurang ajar syapa ?!?!!!?! lu yang nyelak !!!!!"
(gw langsung treak-treak lebih kenceng biar anaknya ama orang2 yg ngantri diblakang dy tau !! dan dy malu skalian !!)

"Dasar !! anak kurang ajar !!! bilang ga ngantri...bla bla bla.."
(langsung bawa anaknya pergi)

"Eh anjingg !!!!!! lu yang kurang ajar !!!! dulu disekolahin ga??!!! ngantri dong !! anjiing !!"
(That auntie is a real bitch !!!)

For oldies out there !!!! FYI, bukan selalu yang tua yg benar...bukan kta yang muda yang selalu kurang ajar !!!! bisa bedain dong mana yg bener mana yang salah...!!! (klo emang tadi dy tetep ributin dsana pasti gw tonjok !!! )
Gw emang kasar... dan gw ga nyesel uda treakin dy dengan kata2 kasar.. i dont care what people say ... buat gw yang namanya ngantri ya ngantri... tunggu gilirannya.. dy yang duluan treak2 sambil nunjuk2 ... syapa yg kurang ajar ?!?!?! Semua orang yg berdiri diblakang dy juga ngantri kok !! semua tau klo ngantri ada gilirannya !! jangan berasa klo yang tua yg slalu benar dan bisa marahin yang muda seenaknya... seharusnya yg tua yg tau diri...dan tau mana yg salah dan benar... klo dy ngerasa bener, ributin aja skalian..ga usah pergi dari TKP... !! Gw diajarin orang tua gw untuk minta maaf klo kta berbuat salah dan pertahanin yang bener klo kta berbuat bener...

Ini masalah kecil ! klo dy sadar dy salah dan uda nyelak, tinggal bilang sorry waktu gw negur dy..ga bakalan lah gw treak2in dy...setiap orang punya emosi...klo dy ga peduli treak2 dan asal nunjuk2 orang, gw juga akan melakukan hal yg sama..ga perduli dy tua ato muda...
klo dipikir2 lagi bener2 bikin marah tuh tante2...anaknya aja diem aja ga mau belain dy !! Dan gw sama skali ga ngerasa salah sampe skarang...karena gw ngantri !! dy ngantri..!! tapi nyelak pas sampe kasir..T-A-I bgt kan tuh orang???


and I'm fierce !!!
bR

+ Incentive !!

February 27th, 2009


..lagi asik-asik Input sales order (yaa..sebenarnya ga asik sihh.. T.T so lame ...) tiba-tiba...

Yuning : "woi woi !!! kita gajian hari ini!! Ayo-ayo !! coba di check apakah kita bulan ini naik gaji??!!" (dy treak di ruangan kantor..)

Gw liat tanggalan... NAH !! pas tgl 27 hari jumat..krn 28 kan sabtu... trus gw telpon ke Bank Ekonomi .....komputer dengan jenis kelamin perempuan yg jawab...setelah gw ikut petunjuk dy, buntutnya dy bilang gini...

Si Komputer betina : "Jumlah uang yang saat ini bisa anda keluarkan adalah bla bla bla bla" (ga enak dong klo disebutin jumlahnye disini..)

trus gw bingung..!!! kok nambah ya?!?!?! waaaahh!!!! gw naik gaji neeh !!!!....gw diem2 aja tuh...tetep pasang muka lempeng...biar ga ada yg tau gw nae gaji... krn yg laen jg diem2 aja...

-- 5 menit berselang....

..kriiiiinnggg.. <--telpon meja gw bunyi (telponya ga bunyi senyaring ini, tp yg namanya suara bunyi telpon ya mau ga mau bunyinya kriing..lanjut.)

Gw: "Halo...?"

Perempuan : "Hallo bren"

Gw: "iya..dari mana ya?"

Perempuan: "Ini mba Murni..!" <-- bagian personalia..Finance juga..HRD juga...ga jelas dy ngapain..seinget gw ada 2 boneka Guinea Pig berbulu panda diatas computer screen dy..dan dua2nya kelihatan buluk..dan komentar ini gw sadari ga penting...lanjut..

Gw: "oh ya Mba Murni ada apa ya?" (shit! jgn blg gaji gw salah!! dan dy minta balikin sisa uang kelebihan itu !! CRAP !!)

Mba Murni: "Ohh aku mau ngasih tau aja..bulan February ini kamu kan masuk terus selama 1 bulan..dan ga pernah telat..jadi kamu uda mulai dapet INCENTIVE...tp klo kamu telat masuk 1 hari ya dipotong 50ribu..jadi 1 kali telat harganya 50ribu..uda ngerti ya bren?..hallo.. hallo brenna??"

Gw: "oh iya mba...iya saya ngerti..makasih ya mba.." (crap! gw pikir gw nae gaji...tp gpp lah..gw ga mau telat !! gw mau dapet tuh yg namanya INCENTIVE..!! semangattt !!)

Mba Murni : "iya bren, kamu kan blom satu tahun disini, jadi klo kamu cuti, nanti ada biaya yg dipotong jg dari incentive kamu...gtu.."

Gw: "ok mba..makasih ya.." (ok !! no more cuti2 !! demi masa depan cerah!!!)

at last...gw terima my very first incentive...seneng !!!

bR

.:My own E71:.

February 22nd, 2009


CHRISTMAS come wwaayy early this year !!! I got my self a celly !!
Yep yep..my own E71 white steel !! yeeaahh baby !!!

Kerasa bgt lho klo bayarnya pake hasil jerih payah keringet dan hasil tulang-tulang gw yang gw banting-banting... It worth a lot..

Thank you Lord, for making my wish come true..
bR

.:Another day, another story:.

February 14th, 2009 (yes..another post on val's day..)


What if..

I'm not deciding to cut my hair today..
I'm not talking on the phone with him last night..
I'm not meeting him today..

~~

Maybe..

Everything's gonna be Okay..
or
Is it already destined to be complicated like now?
or
I really should not meet him today.. so he'll be fine and I'll be fine..
or not?


but at the end I realized one thing..
All of this St. Valentine celebration a.k.a valentine's day thing are really not my kinda stuff..
Let's say... he (The Saint Val's) and I are not making a good pair..never had..

so I'm wishing ya'll a happy fu*klentine's day !!! yiihaaww !!
bR